Tuesday, May 16, 2006
stupid....
my wrist just wont heal...
and i found out some great things...
i cant do vibrato...
everytime i try the wrist will hurt...
with the bandage on it wont hurt...
but with the bandage i cant even do vibrato
and my fingers are not as agile as they used to be...
their movement is pretty retarded...
after all these bandaging...
soon my brain will become retarded also...
and i cant do those big big fast chords...
ok im totally screwed...
maybe i should just withdraw from the concert...
i'll probably drag everyone down if i played...
everyone improved over the past week...
except me...
thank to my bloody wrist...
and now i got other problems thanks to my wrist also...
maybe i should just quit...
im so not ready for concert...
and i dont even know if my wrist will recover in time...
and i cant do much practising now...
because my wrist cant take it...
i should just quit...
i dunnoe
i really dunnoe...
today's practice was very long...
near the end of it i almost broke down...
the pain is just getting in the way..
haha...
the pain is always there even when im doing nothing
just tt i gotten pretty used to it
and i dont really complain much about it anymore...
but it get worse when i do stuffs
like writing
like typing
and practising
ok let's not talk abt the pain
i have been writing abt it everyday
i think u all also read until damn sian...
eehhh...
my physics test results was horrible...
i knew i couldnt pass...
but i never tot i'll do tt bad also...
it's just disgusting...
my teacher was like
" do u still want to take phy"
i dont blame her la...
coz i see liao i also wan jump off the building...
budden i cant drop phy...
coz i dropped bio liao...
ok la...
last wk all my test was screwed...
i have a feeling i'll get the same mark for maths...
this sux....
and did i mention tt i slept 5 out of 6 of the periods i have today?
im nowhere here nor there
in terms of my results,
in terms of myself...
im just walking blindly in this never ending place...
i need to find my way
fast
real fast
because time is something i lack...
will you be mine; of love and cherry blossoms
|10:38 PM|
