Sunday, May 21, 2006
since strings camp
my sense of time has been screwed
till now it's still wrong
i feel sleepy in the afternoon
and wide awake at night
like now...
im a person who enjoy the night
i study at night usually
like when its midnight and when everyone else is asleep
my mind is more calm and peaceful at night
during camps and chalet
i usually dont sleep much
even when everyone else is asleep
i enjoy walking around in the night
even if im alone
my sec3 lv camp was at some ulu ulu forest scout camp
night suppose to be scary
but i sense no fear when i was walking around
i like the feeling of walking around at night
doesnt matter where i am
yesterday was walking home at like 12.30
for a normal person
one should be quite scared and walking home quickly
but i was strolling
there was no one in sight
but i was taking my time
enjoying the night sky
sometimes the skys of singapore can be vv nice
my eds camp 2 years ago
at night there was so much stars
the sky was so beautiful
i just lied on the commanding platform of the parade square
and look at the sky
it's such an indulgence
there's no like tall buildings around to block the view
it was simply fantastic
i could forget everything
it's as thou i was running away from life for a moment
ok tt's not possible
i cannot run away from my life
my life is my destiny
if u actually believe in destiny
well
i do believe in these things
to a certain extend
it's fate tt we are friends
our path crossed
and im thankful
but destiny cannot decide my future
i must decide my own path
i must work hard for it
come to think of it
im really pathetic
i have no idea what i want to do after NS
NS actually sort of screw up my life
i finished my piano diploma last yr
by right i could start LRSM this year
and take the exam next year
and somehow i can get into YST
budden thanks to NS
i stopped piano this year
coz it's quite impossible to learn LRSM
i'll have no time to practice
when like i go home only on wkends
so now im thinking of taking it when im in Uni
budden i dont know wht i want to do in Uni
i want to continue music
but YST is out of the question
my current standard is impossible
i was thinking i take up composition
composition is fun
i enjoy it very much
i was thinking during my NS period i could write a few pieces
just for leisure
dont know
talked to my parents abt what i want to do in Uni
i said i want to do music overseas
they were reluctant at first
coz they dont approve me doing music
then after some talking
they say if they are financially capable
they are willing to do so
if music is what i really what to do
thank you so much
my parents are very understanding
thank you.
will you be mine; of love and cherry blossoms
|10:33 PM|
