Wednesday, May 17, 2006
i got back all 3 test of last week
as expected
i passed none
haiz
disgusting results...
last week was really disgusting
i decided to not study much for these test so i could spend more time practising
then in the end i injured my wrist...
end up i achieved nth at all
it's just great...
im just so demoralised by them
chem test...
i tot i could pass...
coz it wasnt tt hard
and i could do most of the questions...
im so disappointed...
my maths teacher was so upset with me
coz so far i have been performing pretty not bad for the test
then this one i flopped all the way...
to be the lowest in class
drastic change
on a brighter note
he was very understanding...
he understands that i have other commitment
so he gave a few tips on how to better manage my time
and told me to start revision asap once the concert is over...
i dont really know how to put it in words
but i can feel he really care
it really helps to have someone to be so understanding
esp at these times when im really low
this is bad...
i cant seems to sleep properly at night...
either i cant fall asleep
or i keep waking up for no damn reason
then i end up sleeping in school...
im so lost
i just feel strange not touching my piano...
i stopped my lessons for half a year already
maybe i shouldnt have
then i tot i should start again after As
but it seems so weird not to touch the piano
ok im not a good pianist
but playing the piano
helps me forget abt everything
i can just indulge myself in the piece
all other stuffs will just disappear...
well i still touch the piano every now and then
but it just feels different
i dont know
i believe the cheetat half a year ago is a much much better pianist than i am now
i have made so many wrong decisions
like i should have taken mep instead of bio
but what to do?
i was talking to zhijie abt nc 16 n m 18 shows jus now
then i realise a horrible fact
this is the last year i'll be recognised as a student
this is the last yr i can enjoy 45cents bus fare and students lunch or student meal
eee
tt sux
i calculated... if i pay adult fair i'll need like $2 bucks everyday just to go home from school
that sux
today's paper got one article "small fare hike this yr, if any" they post this type of article means sure will have fare hike this year one
tt sux
transport is so expensive!
YUCKS!
and now im already complaining tt 45cents bus fare is expensive!
every month i spend 40-50 bucks on transport!
disgusting
im feeling so low now...
my results are at all times low
and im so screwed for concert...
and my wrist dont seems to be recovering
haiZ
will you be mine; of love and cherry blossoms
|9:34 PM|
