Sunday, May 14, 2006
this is the first entry of this blog...
suppose to be an happy occasion...
but im damn pissed... im vv sorry
my bro brilliantly screwed up my internet connections on thursday...
dint have time to fix it until yesterday
im not vv good in this...
spent yest night doing it...
and got so pissed until i nearly threw my comp out of the window
luckily my neighbour was vv nice
he came over and spent 6 hrs helping me solve it...
thank you so much
i felt so lost without my comp yesterday...
how should i put it...
the comp has been the place where i put my true emotions to...
where i complain, where i whine, where i cry, where i venge my fustration...
of cos u dont see them in my blog often...
for the simple reasons tt i dont want to u to see them...
coz tt's a side of me which no one knows...
no one...
how should i put it...
i have been pouring out everything to my comp
it seems as if my life is totally bounded by my comp
i just feel lost without it...
i know it's not good...
but..........
i really dunnoe...
sux... my wrist hurts after typing this "much"...
disgusting...
shall rest as and when it hurts n type later...
hurt my wrist on wed night...
it really hurts....
it was so bad i cant even write much or even carry my file
it isn as bad now
but it still hurts...
sigh
shall summarise the events since i last posted...
wed maths test was disgusting...
i dint study much
only read thru my notes
and the best was i couldnt think during the test...
i just cannot remember anything
do u know how bad it feels to be not able to write a single thing that u r confidence of?
luckily thursday chem test was not tt bad...
wasnt vv difficult...
but NMR need more time to think... and i dont know how to write the explanation for my deduction
n i cant believe my wrist became so painful during the test
it's a chem test... and there airnt much to write...
by the way... many thanks to the people who helped my keep the violin i left around...
vv sorry for everything...
i wont try to explain myself like i did when melissa sms me yesterday
coz after some thinking...
everything i said was just an excuse...
it's my mistake right from the beginning...
so no pt pushing it away...
and thanks for letting me know my mistakes...
then was strings camp
i went at 11... coz before tt was practice... and i cant practice...
i slacked the most during the camp
thanks to my wrist...
everyone improved... except me...
i feel so bad...
what a time to injure my wrist...
let me see...
i got about 7 hours of sleep in total...
tt's considered quite alot...
coz usually camps i sleep less then 6 hours...
first night we mapled until 5...
but i dint do much... mostly was just watch rn fight...
coz he's pro...
i cant last too long mapling also... coz of my stupid wrist...
was vv fun thou... haha... especially when tim n i died...
lol
then 2nd night me tim hsinching played cards till 4++
then i read my book till 5+
i wanted to stay awake one...
but i took 2 types of medicine tt coz drowsiness...
then i slept also...
did i mention there was some people whom i cant stand?
dont ask me sit...
it's just so irritating...
everybody is tired... and some ppl simply gave the excuse tt she want to sleep and dont care...
leaving others to do the stuff...
what is this?
she's in the same comm...
but she has done nothing...
NOTHING...
when everybody else worked so hard...
forget it... not worth it to get angry with this type of people...
then yesterday afternoon watched M-i III with zhijie rn tim
eh... if u haven watch i don recommend you to watch
it's pure action-flick
vv messy... coz too much action
and vv thin storyline...
i prefer shows with nice storyline or deep meanings...
those tt r thought provoking...
i think V for vendetta was nice...
the use of symbolism was great...
and the director put the symbolism in layman so people could easily understand...
unlike some shows where symbolism are not tt obvious...
tt's about all the interesting stuff tt happened...
recently i have been feeling im not myself anymore...
physically i mean...
i have been skipping lunch for a week... since monday till today...
on mon or tuesday i even went 13 hours w/o food...
i ate during break... then all the way till i went home after strings and cleaned up myself... about 10+
i have never been liddat...
i could never have gone w/o food for 8 hours...
less say 13 hours....
my appetide is getting smaller too...
like on friday night the dinner during camp
the box of rice made me vv bloated...
and today...
i couldnt finish my portion of noodles...
which in the past wasnt enough for me...
it seems there's something wrong with me
i dunnoe...
i have been having flu for like 2 weeks
and its stll not recovering...
how disgusting...
have to rely on medication...
my knee is giving me problems also...
i have been having an extra bone section on my left knee... its pretty common in people thou...
but mine will hurt like after running my 2.4... not always... but pretty often...
but tt's not so bad... at least it's after running...
but now...
on my second round on the track it hurt like anything...
worse sometimes it will hurt also when walking...
my doctor say there;s nothing really tt could be done...
he say an operation could be done...
but if possible i want to aviod tt...
i dunnoe...
haiz...
will you be mine; of love and cherry blossoms
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