Monday, May 15, 2006
my wrist still hurts...
why wont it just recover
why wont the pain just go away
yes it doesnt really obstruct my movement
and my bandage is just a precaution
so i wont bend my wrist too much
or else the pain is enuff to kill me...
it really sux...
ok the pain isnt as bad as it was on thursday...
but sometimes it stills get unbearable...
what have i done wrong to deserve these...
this period im suppose to be practicing for concert...
and now i cant practice...
sux....
dont even know if my wrist will recover in time for the concert...
im just totally tired out...
i know there's no point complaining...
coz tt's life...
the amount of workload is piling up...
yes i often do my tutorials...
but even so the stress level is building up real fast....
studying have never been such a chore...
there's so much to study
so much i dont understand...
everyday i'm online...
but im not slacking...
i have never slacked...
i'll probably be reading my notes...
but i dont do tutorials...
now the amount there is to study is piling up
it;s only the beginning...
it'll be even worse next term...
it feels totally riduculous...
im sapping my soul out of myself just for a piece of paper...
i dont like it this way...
but i dont have a choice...
this is not good...
i have been sleeping alot during class...
honestly stayin at home would be more productive than going to schoool
but i dont have a choice do i
well...
like today...
i slept through maths n phy lecture...
as well as gp double period n chem remedial...
im just wasting my time in school...
there's also other stuffs that r hindering me from concentrating fully now...
im not sure...
maybe i'll try to change...
i dunnoe....
there's so many thoughts going on within me...
i dont even know what am i feeling....
i dont know if im happy...
or im depressed...
i really dunnoe...
im so confused...
this reminds me that this blogskin was chosen
because i think it really is what im going thru now...
i dunnoe....
im so confused...
i wan to leave this place...
i want to be free
i want to be myself...
will you be mine; of love and cherry blossoms
|9:26 PM|
